A letter to myself,
You were built and designed to be in a community - to not only love your neighbor but to facilitate others to be able to love one another. It's so easy to be hurt and focus on the pain and WANT your own personal reconciliation OR dignity restored but I think the best way to receive is the give. That is the conundrum of His master design in this life. When you freely give (respect, love, hope, resources), it is He, and only He that can and will reward you with even greater "riches" (respect, love, hope, resources, etc).
I know you are confused, in pain, and mentally struggling with where you need to go, or what you need to do. Take time and restore yourself within a community. It's only in a community that we feel hurt and it's only in a community that we can feel redeemed.
“We hurt in community and yet we also heal in community too.”
Choose your time wisely. If you were given an hour to wallow in crying about injustice, that's an hour you've lost - you could be restoring someone else’s dignity and reconciling someone else’s pain.
In God's perfect design, he gave us ultimate freedom. That means the priceless works of art that God designed, may, unfortunately, hurt you and hate you. Confuse them. Confuse them by loving them. One day, I pray, they'll be souls credited to your bank account in heaven.
So let's bridge across people that LIVE WORK SERVE the community, United as 1 race - the human race; loving all our neighbors without discrimination and without hesitation.
Love you brother,
You belong ...